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I have been really thinking about certain things I would like to accomplish or try to do through-out this deployment. Yes, I already have a lot on my plate with my husband being gone, going to have a baby in February, holidays, etc.. But- I can't help with wanting to stay busy look back and see the things I did. Some of things I post might be silly but to me they mean something and I know they will make me feel good about myself. So, I have decided to post when something comes to mind and or every week something new.

A part of this has something to do with my husband as well. I know how proud of me he ALREADY is but, I know how happy it makes him to know I am staying active and doing things for ME.

So my first one, dont laugh... It's going to be I am going to "try" to grow out my nails. ( I told you, these might be silly ) !!!!!

I have always had a horrible habit with biting my fingernails and my husband despises when he looks at my nails and they aren't pretty and honestly, I do too. I mean, come on; I'm a girl and I should have pretty nails. You would think all those times I spent at the nail parlor, inhaling chemicals and spending crazy amounts of money on fake nails that I would get the hint that nails are a must and every girl should have painted and somewhat long nails but nope, I bit those off too.

So, here is my first goal-

1. GROW THOSE NAILS OUT!!  I mean, the prenatal's are practically giving me a head start..

Wish me luck xoxo. 

- Also, any advice is appreciated. :)

Just a daydreamer.

While Tom and I were on his 2 week leave before DDay, we were able to take a trip to Deming, NM to visit his grandparents. Not only were we surprised how well the trip went, we also couldn't believe how IN LOVE we fell for this little town. Being able to meet and visit with his grandparents was such a joy and I am so glad that we decided to take that trip. You don't realize how little you know about life until you sit down with a 90 year old man ( Tom's Grandpa - George ) who can tell you stories for days. Nora, his grandma who has a heart of gold was such a delight to sit down with and get to know. It's been some time now since Tom has been able to see his grandparents and all I can say is I saw a side of my husband that I never knew existed. I remember Nora saying " George hasn't been able to take that smile off of his face since you two got here " and I couldn't help but say the same about Tom.

Within those couple days that we spent there in Deming, we went by a piece of property that Toms dad had gave to him. From the things Tom had told me of this place I really wasn't thinking too much of it. We were just going to go check it out and see what needed to be fixed and to see what we needed to do with it for future ideas (Sell, Invest, Rent etc).. But to our surprise again, we were in awe. As we walked the property ( 5 acres ) and went into the vacant home we suddenly stopped and looked at each other and smiled. Tom looked at me and said " Well? " and I replied with "You don't even need to ask me twice, I love this place, It's home ". In that moment I could tell both of our wheels were turning as in just how we could make this work. We weren't just looking at the property to make sure everything was okay anymore, we were planning where to put things, to bust this wall out, to replace this flooring, to plant this, to grow that.

You see, Tom and I don't have "big" dreams and wants but the things we do want for our future we always wondered just how we were going to do them. We knew land wasn't cheap and buying a home isn't either. But, here we were.. with land, a home and a place we can build our future on. Not just for us, but for our children. Tom kept explaining to me how he wants to be able to take care of his grandparents being that he is the ONLY grandchild and what better way to do that if we lived just down the street from them? The words to describe this situation is, BLESSED & GRATEFUL.

(My Honey on the back porch staring out on the land)

It's amazing how things just fall right into place, isn't it? I am pretty sure that this home is all Tom and I have talked about since we left Deming. We can't stop making plans and can't stop the visions of Colton growing up just the way we have always wanted our children too. So here I am being a Daydreamer. Dreaming away my thoughts of just how our home will turn out and just what we are going to do with the land.

         ( With Grandpa George showing us the types of trees on the property & old barn yard wood chicken coop in the back ) 

I am so blessed to have the kind of love that shares the same appreciation for things that most would think is just a useless piece of dirt. I'm sure most would look at this land and not even think twice about it but, it captured our hearts. So, when Tom gets out this is where we will be heading. I've never lived in a home that I could go back to or a place to call "home". At least not the way I have always wanted to. One thing I always knew though, my heart has always been within a small town, country side, animals, and living on my own land with my husband and children.

The song " The House That Built Me " by Miranda Lambert seriously couldn't relate any more to how I feel right now. The song describes her growing up in a home but even though I am 24 years old, married, and about to have a son; I honestly believe this will be the home that builds me, builds my husband, builds us and our family. It will take a lot of work to get it to just how we want it, and will continue to be worked on with blood and sweat shed day to day for its up-keep but isn't that what a home is about- The memories? I am just ready, so ready to be a whole with my husband and our little boy in Deming,NM and start Living.

Deming, NM

          

Sending a Care Package, My way!

For a couple days now I have been throwing around many ideas on just how I would love to send out care packages this time around. When I woke up this morning I knew just what would melt my husbands heart ( yes, my Marine is a softy underneath that tough exterior).

Being that this will be Tom's first time being gone and away from family on the "important" holidays I knew that I had to make every single box I send out a little bit more special than just a cardboard box. Some of you don't know my husband and if you do, you still might not know how soft his heart it when it comes to being home. For example; I believe he bragged about my food, my decorating, and the way our home felt like a home to his buddies more than I did to anyone, ever. If there is one thing about my husband that stands out amongst the rest is that he really knows where his heart is, and so do I.

With that said- Hobby Lobby was my choice of destination to stock up on supplies for the packages. First off, that place is evil. I could sit in there all day and probably spend endless amounts of money on decor and art/crafts. I ended up going down the Scrapbooking isle and picked up a bunch of thanksgiving related sheets along with some solid pumpkin orange paper to outline the photos I would be using. Finishing up with some lettering, pens and glue. Oh, I can't forget that I picked up a burgundy bandana. Two things that my husband LOVES when he is in the sand box is a bandana in a zip lock bag drenched in my perfume and the other thing is another zip lock bag with downy lavender dryer sheets ( that's what I use for ours clothes & spray lavender every night before we go to bed ).

I love arts & crafts and they are even better to play with when your making something for the person that you love. A lot of people don't understand how much it means to our women and men when they receive even just a letter. I know how much it warms my husbands heart when he gets something from "Mail Call". It's their lifelines, it's what keeps them motivated and keep them going. After putting everything together, I was pleasantly surprised with the outcome. I'm not tooting my own horn or anything but, a lot of love went into this box including with what it was packed with.



It's amazing how many memories were brought back to me while putting this box together for Tom. A few times I had to catch myself from shedding a tear and remind myself to be strong. Then again, I am human and I would be lying if I said that this deployment isn't hitting me more each day that passes by. Any deployment there is.. hurts but, when it comes to my husband being gone for the holidays it stings just a little bit more ( at least for me it does ). Holidays aren't just a time of celebration or a stressful decision on what your going to make for Christmas dinner. Coming from my family, it's a feeling and experience you just can't put into words when all of my family members get around each other.. The closest word I can even think of to describe it would be, Magical. Therefore, having my husband gone during these times is just not ideal but it is something I am thankful my family understand and are there to help me through it ( coming from a military family ). As we sit around these up coming holidays our eyes will swell up from my Grandpa's prayers that he gives before every dinner and I hope and pray my husband will feel that same kind of comfort when he opens up these boxes I send to him... That's sending a care package, My Way!

God Bless & Semper Fi.

And the countdown... begins

Being that my life has been pretty crazy the last couple months it has led me to neglect the blogging world. Tonight is different, something out there in the universe is pushing me to vent a little ( or maybe a lot ). So, here goes it.

A LOT has been going on in my life and I, myself am having a hard time wrapping my fingers around it all. As of today I am 6 months and 2 days and Colton is growing like a weed. My tummy gets bigger and bigger every single day and he is kicking, I think we might just have a pro soccer player in there.

As most of you already know, I am Marine Wife. Recently I had to do the one thing that any Military Wife dreads doing. That's right, the 10 letter word that makes everyone cringe at the knees and makes the heart sink to the bottomless pit of your stomach, Deployment. I can't begin to explain how stressful life is when you find out how much you have to do in so little time and when all is said and done your last days are spent trying to figure out where did all the time go and how are you going make up for time lost with each other. We finally sat down with each other to take a breather and take each other in the day before he left. It might have only been for 3 hours but I am grateful that I got to lay next to my husband in his arms, colton kicking, and take in the last moments we had with each other until he returns; even it was for a short period of time.

"Time is ever on the move and once gone, it will never return" - How this quote hits me pretty hard these days. If it's anything that I have learned while being married into the Military and has drilled deep into my heart is that "Time Is Precious".. I look back on my life before Tom and I married and shake my head at the moments I took for granted and for the time I waisted. If it wasn't for the fact that I have to let the military take my husband far away from his family for a long time and know the sacrifices we both have to make, I would honestly probably still be waisting precious time. I am just grateful I know how to spend my every last second of the day.. and the only word that can really describe the way I spend it these days is, LOVE.

With all of that being said, my countdowns are on. The clock is ticking away and I have two amazing surprises coming my way.

I get to experience becoming a mother to a beautiful baby boy. Even though my husband will not be there with me ( and god knows how much this weakens my heart because he is my strength ) I will be strong and have his picture right next to me as our son is being brought into this world. I know Tom will be there with me in heart and spirit holding my hand and telling me " Honey, you've got this ".

And probably the most heart-felt moment of my life a moment I will NEVER forget. The day my husband steps off that bus and I run up to him with Colton in my arms and suddenly the world stops and father meets his son. And, how lucky am I to experience a kiss that literally knocks you straight off your feet. A kiss that you wait so many months for? I'm a pretty lucky gal if I say so myself.

With that kind of love, I am forever fulfilled for the rest of my life.

God Bless Everyone..

Thomas, My love if your reading this; Coltie and I love and miss you, terribly.